=_=

life seems to be at a stand still
i have no idea what i want or what to do
it seems so routine now, i'm working with a schedule now
keeping track of where to go and what to do
am i striving towards a goal?

but yea, i'm going to die this semester.
reading overload!
huzzah!

@_@

i don't know whether to feel relieved or disappointed
being kept in the dark about things and left behind
kept from the truth
i really don't know how to feel about this
but i guess it's for the best
as long as i don't need to know anymore
[sigh]
but it really is a downer

=[

striving towards the future with no goal intended
makes me wonder what i'm going to do with my life
makes me rather depressed that i have no actual goal
i mean sure i would like to finish college but what about after that? what am i going to do with my major? or if i'm going to do anything at all. which makes me wonder most of the time.
it's easier to worry about the present than pondering on the future.
rather sad that it can never be that easy. because the present becomes the future and where am i left?

=(

i'm disappointed in myself for feeling this way
i thought i was fine but i was lying to myself
if only i can sever all ties

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life is short
but limiting yourself makes it even shorter

=)

today was my last day a t volunteer
kind of sad, but not so much.
so many people have left and so many people have signed up
i'm gonna miss that place =(
but i'm not going to miss the weirdos that frequent the place =/

good times

troubled

i should be relieved but i'm not
i don't want to feel this way but i can't help it
really, nothing is going to plan, not that i had a plan in the first place

no one said it was going to be easy but i wish it was
so i don't have to feel this way or contemplate on these bloody matters
but they rack my mind and over take it

[sigh]
if only . . .