lost it

i'm losing it
i'm not part of anything
and yet i'm part of everything
there is nothing here for me
i can't go back or forward
i'm stuck in this moment
i've been stuck in this moment
for as long as i can remember
there are no helpings hands
or anyone to call out my name
everything moves forward but me
everything is gone from me

invisible

i don't call out
everyone passes me by
not sparing me a glance or a single thought
i'm invisible
i'm not there
but i take up a single space
where others dare not venture

i don't speak
no body notices me
but i notice everything
i feel sadness from their happiness
and joy at their sufferings
but i'm invisible
and they don't care
my speculations go unnoticed
and they dare not venture to where i go

fade

you're fading too soon
nobody knows
you don't want anyone to notice
you bear the pain
you watch time pass by
alone in the dark
your scenery never changes
in the sleepless nights
you want to fly or to fall
staring out the window
you're fading away
fading away

and losing yourself

will

i got a letter in the mail from St. Anthony's about if i would be kind enough to add them in my will so they can reap some benefits somewhere
i didn't read the whole article
but it was enough heh
and i'm thinking, wow... a will. do i need one?
isn't this a bit gloomy for them to ask to be added into a will
when i'm still young?

is it foreseeing something?
should i make a will

on another thought
do i actually OWN anything?

so sad =(

lol

good bye cruel world?

thanks

thanks for not telling me something so important
that i had to hear it from someone else

and now onto something completely different
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a breath of fresh air
heartens the morning day
and washes the ashy grey
that stunted the health of your face

the first step clears away the fuzz
the second step opens the eyes
and makes it see and believe
what the world has to belie

a breath of fresh air
opens up the morning day
to give light to the dusk
that leads on the grey
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she sleeps deeply by the bay
her hair growing longer day by day
her mind reaches beyond the seas of time
searching for his touch
where their hearts and mind intertwine

she stands by the shore
calling out his name
so they can continue in the game of love
to make their heart and mind only one
until the ends of time

she stares towards the setting sun
glistening across the sea
she reaches for his hands touching only his heart
their hands intertwine while their gaze cross lines

walking slowly along the beach
side by side, all across time

i can say that i thought today was going to be just fine
i really thought that today was going to be a nice day
everything was flowing nicely
and things were happening just great
there were a few rough spots
but i got pass them
nothing like 100 customers in just an hour
and a shit load of packing to do

i honestly thought that today was going to be nice
but boy was i wrong
it's the shits
but only because i brought it on myself
i went and checked it out myself
and only a few people know what i've been complaining about mostly these past weeks
lol...
yea.. it's the shits

it would have been better if i remained in the dark
but i guess it's too late
i thinks it's best if i put this behind me and delete everything that related to it =]
for the sake of my... something. iono
yea.. it's the shits

fresh air

a breath of fresh air
heartens the morning day
and washes the ashy grey
that stunted the health of our faces

the first step clears away the fuzz
the second step opens the eyes
and makes it see and believe
what the world belies

a breath of fresh air
opens up the morning day
to give light to the dusk
that leads on the grey