Walk Away

can you please

just turn around

walk away

nothing concerns you here

you are not needed

nor are you wanted

just turn around

before someone's head explodes

you are tolerated no more

not a whisper of you is wanted

not even a sliver of your soul

you have someone else who wants you

but that person is not me

I can no longer give you what you want

nor would I want to

you have used me
time and time again

there is nothing left to give

there is nothing left to say

so please

just walk away

away from here

away from me

Dream 9.14

We were at the beach having a good time when I noticed something floating in the water. It was a huge octopus [why is it so close to the shore?] People didn't notice it and continued to play. My friend started running towards the people to tell them to run away and I grabbed a stick to try to make it run away. It started attacking some people and trying to eat them whole. Some people decided they were curious and waded towards it. Do you guys want to die?

Dream 8.31

Stuck in a maze trying to find the keys to open up the door to the next level. Everyone is trying to find their way out but there's no cheating involved since the keys are programed to each person's DNA. So you can't share keys and getting to the next level for you is not the same for the next person.

There was even a point when I was driving on super narrow roads suspended over the river and I wasn't careful, so I drove off the bridge and into the water. Oh shit I'm going to die and be unable to finish getting out of this maze. But I had a save point so I started over again in the car and was more careful the second time. Will I ever get out of this maze? Who knows.

 

Dream 8.25

Lately, dream me has been taking care of kids, my own or somebody else.
For instance today's dream was about me and my son being homeless when this guy decides to let us stay with him [wtf stranger danger] We stay with him and while he's at work I redecorate the place since it's a sty. I cleaned up the bedrooms, set up an office for him, move some furniture around and stuff like that to repay him. One day his mother decides to visit and he hasn't told her about us so we make ourselves scarce so we don't have to deal with confrontation and questions.

Dream me is trying to tell me something about kids, well dream me needs to stfu and get back to action and adventure.

The Lady in White

her long black hair
her pale white corpse skin
her inner flesh long since turned putrid black
she reaches for you with her mouth open with joy
she has found someone to who can see her
feel the pain that she has felt for the past centuries

she's coming
she's lonely
she wants some company
someone who doesn't run away from her
she reaches out but
everyone that she meets always coils back in fright

they hate her

they are scared of her

no one will ever accompany her in this lonely world
she just wants someone to hold on to
but it's not meant to be
no one understands her
forever will she reach out for unsuspecting people
someone to understand her
but every time they coil back
they will just die by her hands
have their soul sucked away
suffering like she does

always afraid

always alone

Dream 8.22

I was at a gathering of some sorts with lots of people from different factions of the world and I was separated from my group so I had to climb up to the ramp? walk way? thing that goes around the room in order to go with my group. This other girl was with me but she was having trouble because heights!

So we walked slowly to our designated area. when suddenly a dragon attacks. yup. dragon. each faction had their own dragon but this was a peace assembly and that dragon came from underground to attack us all. I told the girl to run and hide but she's like no, she knows that dragon, the only way to defeat him is for her to transform into the light dragon. What? So she transforms and starts attacking. It turned game like because I swear I can see hit points coming off the dragons.

Dream 8.15

I was in a conference room and everyone in the room ordered omurice. I don't even like omurice. But for everyone to order it? So weird.

Dream 8.12

I was hanging out with friends and just started talking and hanging out since we haven't talked in so long. It got late and somehow I fell asleep. Reality set in and that's when I wondered, where am I? why is she here? Didn't she move out? Why does she still have the key? 

In the dream I was so discombobulated that I woke up disoriented. Brain, why you do this to me?

Stubborn

your point of view

is not my point of view

constantly attacking me

you casually walk away

how am I to put my point across

you refuse to listen

                to understand

it only pushes me away further

probably already pushed away others

since you are stuck in your old ways

Sink Back

I'm under the water

I can't push past the surface

no one else is here with me

but I see everyone else above me

how can I reach above

make people notice me

I guess they don't belong here with me

something makes me different from them

I am alone here near the surface

I don't belong here at the border

I must make peace with that

this is how I am

this is who I am

I sink back below

Dream 7.27

We were going to a baseball game and they were offering free drinks. I went to get their refillable bottles and saw that they had blood orange soda. There were so many people and when I made my way to the station, the blood orange soda was gone. I walked back and forth looking for it when this man comes up to me and says hey, stop walking around you're missing out on the game. The heck? What's it to him if I'm missing the game or not? I am here to find that damn blood orange soda, rude.

On another note, my husband called me a gold digger and wanted nothing to do with me. No leading up sequence or anything. Dream me, what did you do to warrant being called a gold digger?

Dream 7.21

For some reason we thought it would be cool to go to a haunted house. Those things are just for fun and nobody sees anything. [In real life I would never set a foot into a freakin' haunted house.] My two friends and I went inside, thinking it's all fun and games until we see a real ghost. He was just chilling at the entrancing waiting to welcome us. What kind of haunted house is this?! Nobody told me there were going to be real ghosts! What is this BS?!

I was equipped with a bag full of water to spray on any ghosts I see. I didn't think I would need it! So not prepared.

Dream 7.18

We gathered into the tea house and set off the meeting with reports from each faction. The mission was to infiltrate a factory in the Eastern Country [map on the table was not of Earth but another world]. I was one of the agents to picked to do it but I protested. I was not from that faction, why did I have to do it? Don't they have their own agents or closer agents? Why must I travel all the way there? So not cool. Bastards. 

Dream

I was chasing down Pikachu when suddenly I spotted Waldo and threw a pokeball at him and caught him.

Dream

When you get bitten, depending on the class of the demons,  that's the level of power you acquired.

I was bitten by an unknown and was placed under supervision of another to see what level of power I had gotten. I was not under any risks but they didn't want to take any chances. I joined the group of people within my class to learn about welding my new powers but we were still not sure what kind I had. I was scolded for not eating more since I needed more energy in order to control my powers.
We were in the cafeteria when another faction came to scope out the new meat. Each group is all about power and ranking and new meat will only add to their rankings.
I went with my new leader and another member to go into their town to do some Christmas shopping when the area around us began to freeze. We went inside a shoe store to get away but as I looked outside I saw shadows going up to ladies and checking them out. When the shadows got closer to us I felt like they were looking for my leader. I told her about it and we tried to fight them off but there were too many of them. She had gotten frozen by the magic so we had to carry her away to inside a mall. The shadows materialized to be 5 men looking for their master to serve. But their attitude was too much, something was wrong with the order that was given. Though they were not hurting anyone, they were a bit extreme. We tried to trick them by leading them through the mall and up random stairs until we reached where the leader's father was doing a campaign for the President. We asked him for help and tried to stall the five men with large amounts of wrapping paper to block their way when I saw that spraying freshener was masking our scent. As we were trying to fight them off,  the 57th president came out to stop us. The five men were a present from him and it seemed like it got out of hand. He used his power to stop them and everything was back to normal.

Dream

We set off in teams to spray the cure to the contaminated but it was worse than we thought. We didn't have enough for the area of contamination and it spread to other objects and creatures that we couldn't contain. I was trying my best but the odds were against me. I quickly gave the concentrated pills to my team member so he could create a quick antidote if we were ever bitten. Hopefully we could clear enough so the contaminated aren't suffering too much but we were late in helping some.
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I was walking around the mall when I reached a exhibit of the rain forest. We had to climb up a ladder in order to reach the waiting area. I let others go before me since they were a family when the host at the top said let's have some fun with the others. Next thing I know there's water pouring from the top of the ladder and pinchers coming out for the wall to bite our crotches. What kind of exhibit is this? This is not fun. This is opposite of fun.

Dream

I was back in school and everyone else in the class room was giving me death glares because the assigned seat chart placed me next to the most popular guy in school. I have better things to do than to care about school drama, who cares about that stuff? I needed to get my school work done and pass with flying colors.

I even woke up this morning thinking, "oh shit I didn't do my homework". [face palm] Brain, why you do this to me?

Dream

I woke up to a hummingbird fluttering around on my bed. I was baffled as to how it got in here since there are no windows to the outside in my room. I was scared to catch it so I asked my cousin to catch it instead. She was freaked out as well and was unable to capture it. The hummingbird started flying away and I followed it while hiding it under my blanket to see where it came from. When I turned the corner, I saw a hummingbird colony. They were just there hanging out, fighting, drinking nectar and the like. I sat there for a while just observing them from under my blanket. [It was like the invisibility cloak from Harry Potter] How the heck did a bunch of hummingbirds get into my house and set up a colony without me knowing?

Empty

Please stay
Don't go
I need you by my side
I can't remember your touch
I barely remember your voice
The scent of your skin

Please come back
I don't know what to do
Without you by my side
I'm lost without you
It's too empty inside

But you're no longer here
And I have to live with this void
Where you once belonged

Dream

i was trying to help my boyfriend escape the attention of another spy. my friend was to distract the guy by leaving random clues, making him think she was the spy. we hid the documents and laptop that my bf had in a storage unit at the bus station. my friend starting leaving the other guy clues in the park, dancing around, making a blog, leaving cryptic notes etc. he followed her into a shop and what best way to distract him is by flirting with him. to get more information they both thought to start seeing each other and instead she slept with him. why are you sleeping with the enemy?! stupid. smart but dangerous.

what happened to me and my bf? i have no idea.

Dream

I was out with some friends, just having fun and drinking. We stayed out through the night and into the early morning. They asked if I wanted to workout afterwards since they had nothing else to do and it was almost dawn. We worked out for a bit but I had to go and get some work done. So I went to an internet cafe, but instead this guy was getting stressed out at the cafe and asked if I could assist him on his project which I agreed to [what happened to getting my own work done?] After helping him out I went back to my friend's apartment since it was the closest and I haven't been to sleep yet and promptly fell asleep on his bed.

If I take a nap within a dream, does that mean I get twice the sleep?

Dream

i was at an engagement party of my best friend. he was getting married to this girl and everyone had mixed emotions. i was helping them set up with telling where the guests to go and that they had to sign the guest book. everything was going well until they went into the stories about how they met and the moment he fell in love with her. except it wasn't their story it was my story. what?! but it's okay. they're getting married now and so in love. but learning this, i couldn't stay anymore, i had to go. so i made my excuses and left. unrequited love and all that.
i just wanted a break from all this, so i pretty much just left without telling anyone. it's only been about two week while i was just exploring the city on my own and only using cash so no one could find me, but he found me anyway asking me why i left without saying anything. how worried he was when no one knew where i was. he wanted to talk to me and load stuff off but he couldn't find his best friend because she was missing. he told me that he over heard that the girl was just marrying him for his money. how could she be so cruel when they've been together for this long. she's been faking ever since they met.

but really. how cruel can he be for telling me this. after watching him for years with another person. well whoop de doo. am i supposed to be happy when i've been trying to forget these feelings for years? jerk.

Walls

crumbling walls

can they hold up anymore

battered from all directions

should I just give in

let it all crumble down

let them all in

open myself up

let them do as they will

but these are my walls

they keep me from crumbling down

they keep them out

they keep the hurt from coming in

Dream

I had a dream about a killer. He didn't start off as a killer but events leading up to that day caused this. The killer used to be a famous talent scout, he was the go to guy to get all the up and coming artists. He was raking in all the business and making all the money until he interviewed Jesse and introduced him to the world of show business.
Jesse started doing better than him and the clients were no longer going to the killer for business. They wanted Jesse and after a while, the world forgot about the killer. He now had no job and blamed it all on Jesse. He start plotting and planning to get rid of Jesse. If Jesse wasn't here, then he would still be making all the money. Jesse did this. Jesse must pay.

So Jesse's running for his life and hired all the bodyguards to protect him. A reporter got into the mix when one of the hits went down and had to run for her life. She would have been killed if not for her camera man. He drew the fire from the killer and saved her life.

Dream

We were cornered into a room trying to do our best to defeat the enemy. Shot after shot and they just kept on coming. I rummaged through the room to see if I could find anything I could use but to no avail, I had to use my last resort. I put together the air gun that held the red liquid. Who knows what it may do,  it was still in the testing stages but I had nothing else. I ran to where my team was and aimed and fired back at the approaching event. What happened was unexpected. The people that I had shot would freeze and implode on themselves. The origin of the implosion would suck inwards and what was left of them was a tiny red ball. What have we created? I gathered a red ball for testing, we couldn't stop and wonder since we were on enemy territory.

This Road

rush

rushing

can't stop

want to slow

can't keep this pace

going to tumble

going to fall

no one there to catch me

keep steady

I can catch myself

barrel roll back up again

I can do this

I may trip

I may fall

but I will keep on going forward

all these road blocks

they may hurt

they may cause me to falter

but they can't keep me down

they can't make me stop

Dream

We were invited to go to a relative's house for the holidays. We drove there, following the directions of GPS. When were trying to figure out which house it was when we saw it. It was decked out in red and white. A detail that I remember is the huge sugar lime slice mounted on the wall of the house. Everyone was trying to get a picture of that for some reason.

All the relatives were standing around talking to each other, why aren't you guys going in? Don't you want to explore this place? I head off to explore the area with my cousin. I almost forgot to grab my cane in my excitement, since I needed that to walk long distances. The houses all around this area were huge. We walked further and saw this theme house and it had collections of almost everything. The host showed us around, it was all a blur but I recall that if you visit the theme house 114 times, you are allowed to visit their secret library. Now, most people don't visit a theme house that often but my cousin really wanted to see the secret library and asked how many times we can visit in a day. But her hopes and dreams were dashed when it's one visit per day.

We walked back through this dark street? alley? portal? and saw some skeleton bones on the floor. When we neared the pile of bones, they started to put themselves together and start coming towards us. I just grab my bag and start swinging at them, knocking them down. We reach the end of the way and back into the sunlight.

Dream

I was going into a tower dungeon to collect some items to call on the power of the elements. It was me and my buddy but the army was right behind us. We ran into a girl who was also after the items and I knew if I let her get close to me then she would pick my pockets.
I was collecting items along the way to give me a boost in power and also making potions. When we reached where the items were I used my sand power to tornado myself to pick it up before she did.
We made a run for it but I made sure that she was always in front of me. There were so many scenarios running through my head but also,  in the back of my head I knew what would happen (cheat guide?) 
We ran to the top of the tower,  me picking up herbs and plants along the way,  and if we didn't get the element items then we wouldn't have been able to fly out of there. I could use my sand powers but that would only help me and not my buddy. So I call upon the winds and we are out of there.

Dream

I was in class when the teacher announced that we were going to give presentation. wtf? Did I miss something in the previous classes? Did I even go to the previous classes? What is going on? I'm panicking and really hoping that he doesn't call on me. I ask a fellow classmate to see what the presentation was about, maybe I can quickly come up with something. He tells me that the presentation is like pictionary/charades. We have to draw/describe three things that represents something we have discussed about before in class. I don't remember any of this. The teacher calls upon the first person and she goes up there and starts to draw a portrait of a woman. She's an amazing artist, using different colors and everything just flows together when it starts coming to life and starts projecting all these movements and images on the board. That's cheating. I can't make images come to life. The next person goes up and starts drawing stick like figures and just starts doing it like pictionary. Though for some reason, a classmate called out that he was cheating, that if it was done on the Simpsons, it doesn't count. Good thing I was never called upon, I can't draw and I had no memory of what we discussed in the previous classes.

Just Stop

stop sharing

sharing things that is not yours to share

is not caring

those posts were private for a reason

if that information was to be freely given

then the original owner would have made it public

stop trying to be the first to tell everyone everything

it doesn't even pertain to you and you want to share

gossip mongers like you can't be stopped

that is how you get banned from seeing and knowing things

can't keep your mouth shut

can't even promise to keep it secret

keep it safe from prying eyes

can't even trust you now with the simplest things

can't even cringe at the thought of you sharing things

things that i have told you in the past

cringe at the thought of other people knowing

cringe at the requests from other people

cringe at how they want something that was not freely given

cringe at them invading my privacy

just stop

Moving on

No I don't like you
I thought I did but I was proven wrong
Your inconsistent behavior makes me regret knowing you
Your inconsiderate behavior makes me want to erase you
I can't stand the sight of you
Every time I think of what you have done makes me cringe
Time and time again I try to let bygones be bygones
But every time I'm near you
You do something that makes me rage
I can't believe I thought better of you
I can't believe that I thought you did good
This is the last time
I can't handle it anymore
It makes my head hurt
It makes me want to pull out my hair
It makes me shudder every time I think of what we shared
I am fine to cut my ties with you
Relations with you can suffer
It's about time I moved on
Do something different
Something that doesn't involve you

Dream

A bunch of relatives came over to celebrate my sister's pre-wedding [irl she's already married]. Everyone was asking me if I saw her dress already and if she's ready for her big day. More relatives come over and the house is getting packed. For some reason, her make-up artists come over but they're trying to patch up this piece of paper that is the outline of her wedding day makeup [dream me didn't understand it either]. I go outside to get some fresh air away from all the noise but the kid from next door was practicing his violin and let's just say he's not going places any time soon. No peace from all the noise. Who stands out on the balcony to practice their violin anyway?! Jerk.

Dream

I was walking around the kingdom trying to find any evidence that would lead me to my friend's sister. He has been trapped in a spell for hundreds and years and had no idea what had happened to her. We had traveled around looking for witches and sorcerers to help us have a look in the past but to no avail. When I has finally made contact to the kingdom, they had found this book hidden beneath the others. I was getting mad at the others who tried to peek at the book before me. It was a delicate and intricate book and yet they treated it roughly, almost folding the pages. Jerks. I opened the golden gilded pages to find instructions to close off a castle and placing spells to avoid trouble and intruders. The one who wrote this book closed off the castle so no one could get in or not during the horrors of the sickness that spread through the land. The author wrote a letter addressed to my friend's sister. Only then I stopped reading and went towards my friend in the corner. We had finally found evidence of his sister. And the one who wrote this book sealed her in a castle for a hundred years, hoping the plague didn't wipe out his love. Who knows if she is alive today. The sorcerer who wrote this book seemed very powerful and if he fell in love with her,  then it could be possible that he could have prolonged her life.

Dream

Dream friends were trying to set up a date for me. I wasn't having any of it. I was at her house to just hang out and chill and they bring him out. I met the guy before but it was still very awkward since generally I am an awkward person. So what does dream me do? Ignore the heck out of him. Nope, not having any of it. Thanks but no thanks. Just because dream friends are all married or in relationships doesn't mean they have to shove their ideologies on me. I'll be busy over here doing something that doesn't involve making eye contact or talking to him. Good plan.

Dream

I dreamed of going to the club with my girls and what I remembered in detail was the fruit cup that they had. It was alcoholic shaved ice shaped like fruit but it didn't fall apart when you bit into it. I went for the pineapple one and it definitely tasted like pineapple.

the brain is so weird

Dream

A group of us were running away from home and trying to find our way in the world. We ran the tops of buildings to get as far away as possible. We even ran through the forest and ended up at a river and abadoned house. We thought we could make a home here when some bodies washed down the river to the river gate. We stared at the bodies and saw that they were mummified. And of course they come to life, because why not. That's what mummified bodies do in your dream. They were slow moving mummies so it was easy to kick them in the face and run across the river. I even stopped to think that I can't swim, how deep is the river? But I did it anyway. It was either death by mummies or death by river.

Dream

Going undercover in a restaurant but someone brought their kid. Wtf. How is she part of our operation? Stupid loud mouth kid broke our cover and now all the shady people in the restaurant are after us. I run into a room with a chandelier and apparently we are on a boat and that room is detachable like an escape pod. Some water got in and I panicked a bit but I managed. And how the hell am I supposed to get back to shore with no paddles? I somehow make it and to escape I broke through the wall to call my people and tell them what happened. Stupid little girl

Dream

I was visiting this family and they had an issue with one of their sons. He locked himself in his room and wasn't answering when his parents called. We tried a special key to have his door open and he was just sulking in the dark wanting to be left alone. Moody teenagers. We got to talking and worked through his angst and problems. We spent some time together until he wasn't feeling so depressed and anti-social. Everything was fine until one day we get back and I detected florescent cleaner that covers up blood (dream logic) 
So I was like wtf where did all this blood come from and who caused it. Next thing we know, the son has a huge hole in his chest and bleeding everywhere. I see a blur and there's a girl in the room now. Where did this vampire girl come from???
I was trying to fight her off and keep the family from dying. We locked her in the room but I couldn't kill her.
I figured out where she came from and rewound back time. Since when could I do that? Anyway, I had the father turn the key again to open the door and there the son was again. Whole again.
The vampire girl always liked the son from afar but never approached him. So when I started spending time with him,  she got jealous. So if she can't have him,  no one can.
So I rewound back time to before this and saw that sooner or later they will meet and she will evolve into something better and good and he would heal with her.

Tread Lightly

I'm not taking any chances

I don't want to push too hard

any more and it may fall over

unable to be fixed anymore

broken beyond repair

never going to get it back

must tread carefully

not going to make any mistakes this time

going to think and rethink upon my actions

until I'm one hundred percent sure

beyond a shadow of a doubt

that I won't tip the scales

go slow

don't startle

don't upset

go slow

be careful

be cheerful

nothing but positive thoughts from here on out