hm

sometimes i fear i cannot breathe
and sometimes i can't
and then i panic
and i make my own heart skip a beat

jury summons

do they hand deliver jury duty letters just so people can no longer have the excuse of i never got it in the mail
and for those people who do say that. - they get caught!
so funny

i only know because there was some lady walking door to door putting letters into the mailboxes
i got into my house before she got to mine and lo and behold.
the letter of summoning
with my name on it
just ... great
=)

small talk?

small talk under pressure isn't real small talk at all
it's more like a
-hi, how are you?
-i'm good good, how are you?
-i'm fine. um yea
-that's good
-okay...
-okay.
[silence]

other people would go on more about the weather or some problem they ran into
but forced small talk always ends in silence
troublesome

or maybe it's just me =)

blue?

just feeling blue today for some reason.
okay for some reason i dare not disclose
it's not a bad thing but it's not a good thing
it's a human thing - bloody emotions that get in the way
there are so many paths to take but which are the right ones
or are all of them the wrong ones?

what am i going to do
or can there anything to be done at all

T~T

i am hating IE right now.
it doesn't work when i want it to work
and firefox died on me i'm so sad
i even removed it and reinstalled it but no go
troublesome

-_-;

bloody birds and their damn babies. they can't shut up! especially when they are calling for food. what really sucks is that they live right above our windows. right above. on those stupid red tiles that are curved and a nice small hole for tiny birds to live in. which sucks big time!
and nothing seems to scare them away...
[sigh]
stupid birds waking me up when i don't want to be up.

cranky

it's rather annoying to be woken up with a start. especially when it was just a short nap. but everything seems to be suddenly loud when it really isn't. the littlest things seem like the loudest
it sucks because then other people would get pissed off people you are pissed off. troublesome really.

okay i take that back, some people are just loud especially in this house. and it's really hard to find some peace and quiet when everyone is home
and they wonder why i stay up late until everyone else is asleep
really...

brain fart?

it is indeed a weird word but today i was spaced out. which is bad since it was during work T~T
it happens all the time
and i think it affected some of my coworkers as well

strange day indeed

bummed?

the sadness. i could have saved five bucks, yes i know i'm cheap but i could have saved five bucks!
stupid V moda bling bling black
now costs 30 bucks. i bought it for 35. darn T~T
if i have only waited a few days.
[sigh] oh well

it cost less than before... i guess i'm saving something and the regular price is 50.
um.. right....

good times
weee can't wait 'til they come to replace my old ones, same ones, cost... [cough] 40

i lied

i lied and it made you cry
the things i said the things i've done
none of those can be erased or undone
if the truth comes out
then it'll only be worse
it will only get in the way
so i'll keep it all inside
until the day i die
or the day when i finally burst

answers? questions?

why can't i ever answer my own questions when the answers can only be found within myself?

-that seems awkward... whatever
i haven't been posting lately, not that anyone reads this. hahahaha. so sad but whatever.

i've been thinking a lot lately but no words seem to come out right and when they do i don't have anything to write it down so i can write it here.

troublesome it is. but it can't be helped.