lettin' go

perhaps it is time to give up since no matter what i do i don't get the results that i want
i've been talking to a few people about this problem and i don't think i can care to do anything anymore
it's hard to leave given the history but i can't take this anymore
no matter how hard i try or how many messages i leave i get nothing back
sometimes i think that we, friends, don't matter anymore

but i understand
that's all right, i'll live, maybe
i have others to lean on and support


it's a beautiful day
don't let it get away
it's a beautiful day

i've been getting into the habit of staying up late and waking late as well
which sucks because i lose time to do everything else
and what is this everything else? not much

i just need some motivation to actually do something
anything
i don't find the things i used to do fun anymore

where did all the time go?

given time

given time we will all grow to live again
given time we will be independent and strong
some are given more time than others
and some are not given enough time to grow

how do we know if we have enough time
or is that something we decide for ourselves
what we take from time
is what time gives back

hard

it's the hardest thing i'll ever have to do...
to look you in the eye
and tell you i don't care anymore

because i do care
and i can't stop caring

why must it be so difficult?!?!

why!?!?!?!?!?!?

lies

my life is filled with lies
how am i to confront those liars if i'm too scared of the consequences
or when will they stop lying to me
because i know the truth but what will happen after?

i don't know anymore
when will people start speaking out
i tried to reach out but they don't respond
so where am i to go from here?

rug

i no longer have a rug
what is a rug?
a rug is a person or thing.. if you want . . that you tell your problems to
you dump your garbage on your rug
or let your rug hide your dirty little secrets

i no longer have a rug
and i don't know where to get a new one
or maybe i have a new one and just don't know it
or maybe it's just some random rug
or an occasional rug
or maybe i just don't have one

i need a new rug dammit !
too many things in my head that i don't have any rug to tell it to

wherefore art thou my rug =(