sharing is caring?

people share things with people they care about
the amount of sharing is the level of amount of caring
so the people who no longer share things no longer care about certain people anymore?

where did all these connections go
when did the rank fall out of place into nothingness?




another thing
people would do things with one person but won't do it with another
inadvertently they are pushing the other away
and unintentionally hurting feelings just because of the things they are doing or not doing

do we have to speak out to catch the friend's attention
or do we just blend into the background and pretend that it never happened

but whatever, it's your call
i wish to not care but i can't help it since everyone is somewhere where i can't reach them

so depressing

i want to go somewhere and maybe i should but i can't afford to =_=

perhaps i should really go through with that teaching job in korea
[sigh]

i feel lonely
even though people are but a phone call away they never really pick up


but then again
i want to run away and disappear for a while
then i wouldn't have to worry about relationships and connections
and be carefree with less stress on the brain

but i can't
unfortunately

or maybe i can
but i fear to

no motivation